I kept my calories at 1000, even with a planned snack of baked bean chips and smoked mussels while watching the movie Goon with my husband. I even took a 5km walk so I burned off even more calories. I also stayed away from the wine that's been in the fridge for over a week now (a week! it usually lasts a couple days...)
So why do I feel guilty for having that evening snack?
I feel really focused on losing this weight right now, and it seems I'm scrutinizing everything I put in my mouth more than usual. I know I'm falling back into my past disordered eating patterns, but I am pretty much welcoming it back right now.
I guess I'm just substituting one addiction (alcohol) with another (eating disorder).
But which is worse?
...I think the alcohol is worse.
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